I am splitting today…My head is throbbing with pain as if in a vice. What has happened to me? Today has not been a good day. Full of pented up frustration, anger and pain. There is no way to unleash this monster in me. I seek avenues but none are to be found. All elude me with the ease of a fox. If this goes on, I am going lunatic. Not that I am wholly sane either. I feel so alone in this world. Especially today. A heightened sense of loneliness. I seek solace in the comfort of Dutch courage, my cup of absinthe. I seek solace where none art to be found. Where art my kindred? Where art thou? Where art thou hiding in thy world?